SHOCKED, BOTHERED and SCARED

ok so last night was another darn, freakin day. i had this bad feeling since tuesday night. well, i dreamt about my teeth got torn by my own teeth when i gnash both of my teeth because of an uneasy feeling. well while i'm gnashing my teeth it got torn and i kept licking the inside of my teeth which was continously bleeding. i went to the bathroom to make it stop bleeding. that dream was so awful and i felt it's really happening i was so worried about my teeth because the teeth that i lost was about 45 degrees to the right from my front teeth. i was ultimately worried about that when suddenly i woke up about 12 mn, 2 hours away to go to work. well good thing that was a hell yeah dream! thought it was true and it's really happening.
so after waking up from bed to get ready to work, i kept wondering. what the hell is that dream all about? i was once told that dreaming all about a teeth, or loosing once teeth means an end on something. specifically, a loved one, problem, happiness or anything that you have. so i started to think that i will loose something or even someone in my life. i was really worried until days passed by and nothing really happened so bad except the bad days i had at work. well, HAKUNAMATATA after two days. until last night when i'm gone to sleep around 9 pm. i was having this dreams again when suddenly someone woke me up and it was my mom, with a feeling painful face touching her belly and told me that she's having a worse pain in her belly that she couldnot stand any longer. so i was really SHOCKED, BOTHERED, SCARED and too worried. i paniced of course like i have this really panicing voice which me myself noticed, because i don't know what to do. she just told me to call my sister. she said that she was feeling that while i was asleep but not much pain, but it got worsen. ok i called up my sister on her cell but no answer. tried calling her on her husbands cell and there i was able to talk to her. partially relieved but i was much worried because don't know what to do. my sister asks me question regarding where was the pain that our mom feels the darn, chaotic pain. so i describe it to her and my sister told me to bring her, my mom, to the hospital bbut i'm not too sure because i don't have the money and she don't have the money too, so should i bring her to the hospistal and i also thought what if it's just a certain air stuck on her stomach that causes the pain. just told my sister to come over to our house and sleep there over night just for our mom to have a company in the house just in case of an emergency because i'll be off to work at around 2 am tomorrow, and that's today. with this panic and worried thing i did not even notice that my mom is already drinking a hot tea. she said that she's ok now and told my sister not to come over to our house, but i said no, come over i'm not comfortable still worried what if it's just temporary and what if it'll happen again no one will acompany her or to look at her because i still have a training next day and i'll be home around 7pm. so my sister decided to come over and checked our moms status. well, the result was it's ok now after drinking a hot tea. She even told us that she released the air already and the pain was gone. partially relieved from the worries and i started to think about that darn dream.
after a few minutes knowing that mom is feeling alright. i went up stairs to sleep again, and started to cry. i felt guilty with what had happened. i even told GOD not to do this again. it'll be good if that happened to me. my tears spread down on my cheeks continously and constantly. told myself that i can't live without my mom. told GOD that take me rather, it doesn't matter where my soul will be designated, just as long as my mom will live much longer to experience all the convinience in life, which she suffered to grasp by this hoax people had done to her especially TERESITA SY, a SWINDLER just did.
well today at work can't actually ease my mind worrying and thinking about my mom. earlier i called her about 15 minutes to 6 am and gladly she answered the phone immeditately on one ring. ok, so i've asked her how she's feeling if my nephew's awake. my mom told me that she's ok and stuff. i kinda feel good and comfy about that. while i was doing my job at work. i suddenly noticed my sister just logged on to her account using the messenger software. ok so first thing on my mind when i noticed that was she's still at our house using the computer. well i finally asked her how's mom and how's everything and they're feeling ok and she told me to keep checking mom every now and then because she's gonna leave to take care of her children.
while having a chat with my sister well she asked who's keejer from her messenger list. so it's our eldest sister. ok, told my sister to call mom and try to let mom talk to our eldest sister. since then did not have any word from my sister and thought that my mom just took over the computer and had a chat with my sister.
ok so here i am still stuck on my job and did not even take my luch yet, because of this darn issue that i'm trying to resolve. everybody's getting ready to have the training and i'm still stuck here. o well, i'm done and went to our training. i did not even understand a thing about what was taught. o well i can just get along with that somehow. another day another journal. whatever happened to that will be understood someday, somehow.